Surprise

A long time has passed since we last talked,

I can’t imagine the last time my name popped into your head.

We were young,

Everything meant so much and so little.

Especially in retrospect.

When we can see how small life was.

How small the scope of our vision,

And how superfluous our responses were.

 

I thought of you today,

For some reason, or no reason,

Just because it happens from time to time.

I still miss what it feels like to be confused and in love,

And not in love and young.

Sharing so many moments with you.

 

There is a gulf so large,

I will never be able to reach across it.

Pull you back to me, or join you on the other side.

I didn’t think about how much life can change.

Ten years is so long.

I can’t think about ten years.

When I visit the images and the memories,

It feels like a handful of moments between me now and me then.

Like I can touch you.

 

I’m sorry.

Surprise

Scattered

I will be ripped apart by time,

And scattered throughout the universe,

But right now I’m watching a fence go up.

Molecules assault my ears,

They’re processed and organized,

In an organ that makes sense of the world.

 

I can add up all the years I’ve been alive,

And round them off the end,

But right now I’m looking at people driving by.

With their own concerns.

While I’m scared my vision is failing.

And I will stop making sense of the world.

 

 

 

 

 

Scattered